oh nine, oh me......on to the 20-ten.......lets recap.

I feel bad, as I've not posted a single rant since october, not that anyone gives a turd about the 5 minutes I take to peck out a paragraph of nothing. I do this for me, and not sure yet why. Anyway, lets recap the 09, shall we?

I've discovered in the past month actually, that I can still read, and actually do enjoy it. I've also found, that reading a bit before bed, helps me sleep. I read a bit, and fall fast asleep. Currently reading "devil in the kitchen" by Marco Pierre White.

I've learned to never take anything for granted, no matter what. Regardless of time or consistency of a situation or relationship, things can and will change. Life is the great equalizer it seems. Just when you think you've got it figured out, DUCK!!!! cause it's coming and fast.

I'll be completely debt free in feb. The past year, leading up to this has been lean to say the least.

I'm fine with not owning an Omega, let alone 3, I'm OK with less expensive watches, I find I enjoy building mods as well.

I procrastinate more than any human alive, and have yet to finish a single knife project I started this year. Several are built, but none are finished.

I proved, beyond question, that good intentions pave the way to hell, or at the very least, a nasty fight where most everyone thinks you're as ass....but the rest of the world agrees, you're really not.

I'm currently very comfortable, growing more so the past year, I'm enjoying my life right now.

I've reconnected with so many old friends over the past year, I find it difficult to keep up. I'm very happy to find and be found by people that I've missed over the years, and see where they've gone, meet their families and feel welcomed as part of that.

I've also been visited by the sins of the past, in a way. That's a non issue now, but still sit in the back of my mind some days.

I've tried to learn daily to improve my cooking, that's where I'm truly happy, when I'm cooking. The cooking gives me pleasure, but being always disappointed with the final product, though I'm always told it's great...so I'm usually torn with my efforts. The dish might be great, but when it doesn't match the vision in my head, it's not right.

I'm very happy to have my family in my life. The holidays were great recently, and I hope it continues the trend.

I've seen some friends and family go, and new lives come forth. I know that's the way it works, that's the plan, but the logistics don't make the situation easier. Death is a fact, and we should celebrate a death, celebrate the wonderful life that person left behind and the people they've touch and brought happiness to. I know this is an abstract idea, but it's solidified in me over the past year.

It's been a weird year, to say the least, and gone by faster than most in recent memory. I hope and pray for the 20-ten to be smooth. I'm hopeful. I'm ready for relaxation and NO DRAMA! I'm done with the drama.

Have a good one kids, and a big CHEERS on NYE. much love from the fat guy.